I have to be honest; I’m not sure what to think at this point. My mom and I went in for a consult with my OB today. Nick desperately wanted to come to this appointment, but he had a meeting.
On the good side Anna was looking good on the sonogram. Her heartbeat was good and she was of course moving and kicking! Also, he didn’t seem too surprised about the spotting. He said that with the amniotic fluid being “port wine” with blood, the bleeding isn’t a shock. I explained that it was ‘old blood’ and asked if that made it better? He responded by saying what’s old? 1 day, 2? There is no way of knowing.
Through this consult I was more prepared to hear the answer to questions that I was too scared to ask before. I asked about being anemic and what that means for the baby. He said that this was the least of my problems. I also asked what does 50/50 mean. He explained that we have a 50% shot that the baby will live or die. If she does live then we are looking at brain damage or various handicaps. I asked how the baby would miscarry if that is what we are preparing for. He said that the baby’s growth would eventually get slower and would stop. At this point the baby would die.
I left the doctor’s office feeling heavy. I didn’t realize that the positive side of the 50% was such a dark future. My mom and I were on our way to get yet another shot of Rhogam because I was bleeding.
When I got home I called Nick and gave him the update. Nick responded by saying “I knew I should have gone with you”. Nick instantly started googling. Not for more gruesome information, but for uplifting positive success stories. There has to be others out there like us! He found some. Nick also came up with an Idea for an “Anna Vision” board. He started printing out success stories. I am looking forward to getting more positive things together for our board tomorrow!
Thank you God for giving Nick such a positive spirit that makes him such a wonderful advocate for our darling little Anna.
Love to all,
The Balabanski’s
On the good side Anna was looking good on the sonogram. Her heartbeat was good and she was of course moving and kicking! Also, he didn’t seem too surprised about the spotting. He said that with the amniotic fluid being “port wine” with blood, the bleeding isn’t a shock. I explained that it was ‘old blood’ and asked if that made it better? He responded by saying what’s old? 1 day, 2? There is no way of knowing.
Through this consult I was more prepared to hear the answer to questions that I was too scared to ask before. I asked about being anemic and what that means for the baby. He said that this was the least of my problems. I also asked what does 50/50 mean. He explained that we have a 50% shot that the baby will live or die. If she does live then we are looking at brain damage or various handicaps. I asked how the baby would miscarry if that is what we are preparing for. He said that the baby’s growth would eventually get slower and would stop. At this point the baby would die.
I left the doctor’s office feeling heavy. I didn’t realize that the positive side of the 50% was such a dark future. My mom and I were on our way to get yet another shot of Rhogam because I was bleeding.
When I got home I called Nick and gave him the update. Nick responded by saying “I knew I should have gone with you”. Nick instantly started googling. Not for more gruesome information, but for uplifting positive success stories. There has to be others out there like us! He found some. Nick also came up with an Idea for an “Anna Vision” board. He started printing out success stories. I am looking forward to getting more positive things together for our board tomorrow!
Thank you God for giving Nick such a positive spirit that makes him such a wonderful advocate for our darling little Anna.Love to all,
The Balabanski’s
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